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Letting go and embracing the new me!

I'm a Right below-knee amputee and this is my story

My name is Lauren Malinowitzer and I'm 37 years old. I'm a Right below-knee amputee and this is my story. "Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go." Hermann Hesse... While reading this quote, I was immediately brought back to the moment the word "Amputation" was spoken. I was sitting on the exam table when the doctor came in. He shook my hand and said, "I looked at your images and it's really not good". I thought to myself "Well that's something I had already known". My father was sitting across from me in the chair. I said, "so what are my options to fix this at this point". He looked at me with a face I'll never forget. Then he said, "I'm sorry to say this but amputation is your choice". I remember so vividly the sound of my own heartbeat. It's as if I heard the exact moment my heart broke. I remember a feeling of intense heat covering my entire body temperature. The feeling of absolute terror and panic was now all I could feel. Amputation meant I'd be permanently disfigured and disabled. I looked across at my father and there he was with tears in his eyes. The Doctor held my hand and said how sorry he was